Finally coming to terms

Today we had our final meeting with Nyx’s teacher, Mrs. T., we brought in his huge list of school supples. Practically all labeled. Minus labeling all 104 crayons. I was totally over that!

Doesn’t mean I didn’t having anything to label. I had 4 bottles of glue, 4 bottles of hand soap, 4 boxes of 10 markers, 2 glue sticks, 2 sets of paints, 24 sharpened pencils, 3 shirts, and a load of other things. We got to let out all the final questions. Questions that have been driving me up the wall crazy. I’m extremely paranoid so I asked ALL the “what if” questions. And amazingly she answered them all. Even Preston’s interrogation questions too.

She really put my mind at ease. She’s incredibly nice to. Better yet she has a daughter going to the same school. Though from the looks of it she’s a couple years older. Nyx also has 2 other, possibly 3, friends from Pre-k in the same class and that’s even better for him. And me.

I got the whole bus thing situated, so he gets to start riding the bus from the first day. Another great fear of mine, but his other Pre-k friends will be riding the bus to the same place as him, so once again he won’t be alone.

I signed him up for the after school youth center, which is free by the way. Had our tour of the place yesterday and Nyx is looking forward to it. Actually he’s been looking forward to going to the youth center for the last year. So yey all around!

And the last thing on my list was the school lunch thing. I thought it was going to be expensive, so I was going to apply for reduced/free lunch, looked at the chart and realized I don’t make the cut. Apparently for a family of 2 I make too much. (Note I’m not rubbing it in your face just stating a fact). So I went on ahead and just put $100 on his lunch card for now. The lunch is $1.25. Pretty cheap I think. So I don’t think Preston and I will bother applying for the reduced/free lunch. I’m sure there is another family that would like our place anyways. Even if we did try with our combined income they’d probably laugh at us for trying to apply anyways. Not a big deal.

During our interview with Mrs. T Nyx got to tour his new classroom. The nice MAC computers, the pretend center, the desks, practically everything. So the greatest ease on my mind is seeing the excitement in Nyx’s eyes. Everything out of his mouth has to deal with Kindergarten. So if he is excited, then I should be too. I don’t want by paranoid/negative vibes to affect him. I want to keep him on this path of wanting to learn.

After the interview I decided to take the rest of the day off. Relax and get things organized. My great-grandmother passed away a week ago and her funeral is this coming Saturday. I have lots of family flying in and they all want to spend some time together. I hardly see them and I think half of them hardly know Nyx exists. Not that they exclude me from their lives, simply that I don’t communicate with them. Nothing is wrong with my aunt, just never had a strong bond with them.

Anyways, there are 4 Great Great Grandchildren and the family want them to play a role in the ceremony. So I’ve been preparing Nyx for that. He’s never attended a funeral before. So I hope he’ll be respectful and follow directions.

In the end, I wish I could have known my Great Grandmother better. I’ve met her a couple times, but I don’t really have a bond with her. It got me thinking, thinking things I should have done a long time ago, I should rebuild my relationship with my grandmother. She is an amazing person. Very funny and I want my son to have a good relationship with her. She’s great and healthy so I know she’ll be around for a long time more. My grandfather is still here too, but has been in and out of the hospital the last year or so. And I know my grandma will make sure he stays as long as she does.

So tonight my WHOLE family is having dinner at my Aunt’s house, N. I never met N. in fact I didn’t know she existed till an hour ago when we were told ordered to go from grandma through dad.

Nyx is taking a nap and this is my opportunity to play with my Wii Fit, DDR, or maybe even *gasp* clean.

I do know something about my Great-Grandmother though, she’s 4 years older than my grandma.

Thursday Thirteen #9 : The island lingo.

So different states have different accents and some how people always know where they come from. So naturally Hawaii has one too.

It’s called Pidgin. I personally don’t talk pidgin, because as local people would call me I’m haole-fied. Haole means foreigner, but most likely referred to a Caucasian person. So since I don’t speak pidgin I obviously speak proper English. I just personally think it doesn’t sound the most intelligent. But to each their own right?

FYI pidgin isn’t used on all islands. “Full pidgin” is most common on Kauai. Maui has some full pidgin, but not like Kauai. Big Island too. Oahu is almost like the mainland, so not too many people use pidgin there. So here I shall teach you 13 of the most commonly used slangs and phrases.

1. “Brok Da Mout” - Broke the mouth meaning it’s tasty and delicious. So good it “broke” your mouth.

Ex: “Ho! How da food? Brok da mout!

2. “Bumbye” - meaning later on, whenever you get around to it.

Ex: “So when are you going to do this? BUMBYE!”

3. “Grind” - meaning to eat like there’s no tomorrow!!

Ex: “Guy I so hungry. We go grind!”

4. “Hapai” - your pregnant.

Ex. “Is she fat? No she stai hapai wit one girl.”

5. “Moi Moi” - meaning sleep.

Ex: “Ok hunny you go moi moi with mommy.”

6. “Panty” - meaning a wuss, sissy, wimp.

Ex. “Guy no be one panty it’s not that bad.”

7. “Stink Eye” - meaning mean or hard look.

Ex. “My mom had give me da stink eye wen I had come home late.”

8. “Wala’au” - meaning to talk a lot. Direct translation means diarrhea of the mouth.

Ex. “Why so late? My sistah n I was wala’auing all morning.”

9. “Planny” - meaning plenty, a lot of.

Ex. “We get planny food already no need cook.”

10. “Talk Stink” - meaning to talk bad about someone.

Ex. “My ears stai ringing someone must be talking stink about me.”

11. “Dirty Lick’ns” - meaning spanking.

Ex. “My mom going give me dirty lick’ns if I come home late.”

12. “Choke” - meaning a lot, plenty

Ex. “How was the party? Had choke people.”

13. “Da kine” - meaning the word you use when you can’t remember what you want to say. Most widely known phrase.

Ex. “You had take da kine to go see da kine yea?”

FYI if you don’t know what “da kine” is from the start of the conversation you might as well give up. lol.

Why So Serious?!?! The Dark Knight review

is a must see movie.

May contain spoilers, don’t read unless you saw it. Or don’t care if I spoil the movie.

Cuz Monique did it, I got curious. My handwriting analysis

Danni is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person’s shoes.

Danni will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Danni an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too “far out.” She doesn’t sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Danni is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Danni is a “middle-of-the-roader,” politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn’t relate to any far out ideas and usually won’t go to the extreme on any issue.

I don’t know about this. It’s more like half half. I can put myself in other shoes. I am moody. But to get me to buy something? I don’t think so. I like people that are “far out.” They are interesting. And I love having interesting people in my life. FYI I usually do go to extremes for any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Danni doesn’t write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

I agree. I don’t always have the best social interaction ability. But I find my way eventually.

Danni will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Danni believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

I might have to completely agree with this. I understand that not all my ideas are awesomeness, but I do expect people to treat my ideas with respect. I probably worked really hard thinking up that idea so the least you could do is humor me and respect that I put some effort there.

Danni is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Completely 100% true.

In reference to Danni’s mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Danni slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Danni can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Once again completely true.

Danni is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn’t necessarily mean things go as planned. Danni basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality– not too “out of reach”. She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Wow, it’s starting to be dead on. Except for the whole, “she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals.”  I’m kind iffy on that.

Danni is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

…… true……

Danni is having some confusion in her physical life. She is examining the past to give her answers about some of her physical desires. She may be trying to find a balance between her philosophical beliefs and her natural physical desires.

Now if Preston would just let us have a girlfriend. This wouldn’t be a problem. lol.

Something is incomplete in Danni’s life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Danni’s sexual needs.

Read comment above.

Danni is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Danni changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Danni feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

I really hate to admit this, but it’s true. I don’t want to talk about it. Read the comment about secrets. lol. But “personality modification”? WTH is that?!

Danni exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Danni allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Danni has a vivid imagination.

Never really thought about this. I think believe I over exaggerated when I was younger. But hell does me no good now, just tell it like it is. I am too trusting. Gullible I don’t know. You tell me. Vivid imagination that’s all me.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer’s attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Danni has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Danni fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Danni has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Danni just comes into someone’s home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn’t much fear of getting in trouble here, Danni finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

Now this one I should have taken back. I was writing on a small piece of paper. On a regular piece I’d leave spaces all around. But I am handful though. Never mind maybe it is true. Minus the part about walking into people’s homes for drinks. No fear of getting in trouble, check. Finds plenty of reasons to break rules and get in trouble, check. Aggressive personality, check. Lack of respect, UNCHECK. Handful, double check. So maybe it was right.

Want to do your’s? Go here! Leave a comment and let me know what your analysis was.

Do Work, Son!

And that I have, and man have I.

In 10 days I put in 134 hours of work. I asked for extra money in this rough spot of the year and I got it, 3 folds. Lots of overtime and double time. Very little much to complain about. I saw my son for all of 8 hours the whole time. I spoke on the phone with him every moment I could. I cuddled up for the nights that was possible for me to come home. It hurt, a lot.

I have been quite absent from everything, everyone, and even myself. I’ve been trying to prove myself, not only to my boss, but to myself. If that makes much sense.

In the months of pass, I’ve grown very weary of my job. Frustrated with feeling stunted by my every daunting task. And questioning my very worth as an employee.

Though I had to sacrifice my valuable time with my son, I received a rejuvenated feeling of worth. I was given incredible challenges and surprise attacks of “bam you got 1 hour to do this make it happen.” Truly it was grueling and i wanted to cry, but I needed my faith in myself to be restored. I needed to reminded that I am pure awesomeness at my job.

Don’t misunderstand me though. I hated being away from my son. I hated not seeing him off to school. I hated having to eat each microwavable meal with another coworkers in a cold building. I hated hearing the tone of much sadness in my son’s voice. It was hard. For the both of us.

Though I needed to be reminded why I enjoy my job, above all we needed the money. Expenses have gone up dramatically. Needs need to be met. Bills to be paid and roof to be kept over our heads. A boss needed to feel much confidence in to give me my raise. Of which prior boss had set up for me already, but new boss didn’t know and screwed that up.

So I’ve done work and things have started to slow down again. I’m back to 8 hours a day. Which leaves only 3 more days of weird hours. 3 days which my son doesn’t need to be in some sort of sad state. He’ll be at J.’s house and won’t really notice my leave.

And so goes for the work end.

Kindergarten.

Nyx had his assessment test yesterday (7/21) and it was about 45 minutes long. Really went through some basic things. His letters, upper and lower, numbers, colors, shapes, body parts, etc. I feel he went through with flying colors. He stumbled a little on the Q, R, G, and S. Skipped 14-16 while counting to 20. Didn’t know where his wrist and heel was, but in all he had awesome remarks.

I get to call in tomorrow or Thursday to schedule a parent-student meeting. That’s when we get to learn what teacher he will have and group he gets put in. We then get to place all his things into his classroom and he finally gets to see where he will finally be.

Might I add, labeling every crayon, erase, marker and book is really a huge pain in the ass Especially when he has 4 boxes of the same markers and crayons.

More updates of Kindergarten are soon to come.

And to end my entry with…..

Divorce.

Not much I can say here. I rushed to notarize some documents last week Friday. In return my lawyers response was,

“So looks like you’ll be divorce in a couple weeks.”

Not that the last 3 years of fighting for a divorce was a fucking breeze.

Under construction…. sort of.

So I don’t blog or spend enough time online to actually buy my own domain yet, but I’m tired of the boring look. Especially the ugly red and orange. So I upgraded to the custom CSS and making some small changes for now. As you can see my banner is gone. I need to make a new one, but I’m doing this when I get the time. Running a household, work, and a 4 year old it’s pretty hard to get some time to myself.

So try to bare with me, thanks.