Dolla Dolla Bills Y’all

Finally got the call from our financial adviser, I’ll call her J.N., but things are a go now. She got a call from FHB. Preston and I got our “special loans” approved. His for $9.5K and mine for $7.5K. We meet with her and finalize things with the bank this Saturday. Although I really am not sure about how things are going to work out, at least according to Preston’s closest friends and his parents. I know they would never lie to us. Which to me that means that we are that much closer to financial freedom and so much years cut away from finally being able to look into buying our first house. I’m excited and completely positive about so many things. If we stick with this my options have expanded exponentially!

Sports.

Music classes.

Tutors.

ANYTHING!

You see that smile on my face?! It’s from this great news. I know it’s not much, but seriously I don’t smile in a lot of photos.

In other news, when the hell do you we get out refund checks? Can I just as Bush to cut me a check?

No but seriously, this week has been hella slow. Nothing to do at work. Nothing exciting to do at home. Correction, nothing I want to do at home. I’m literally just twiddling my thumbs. lol.

I have to look into prices and come up with some faux itinerary for a trip to Nor.Cal. My stepbrother graduates from college this spring. That’s in May or June, but along with the rest of my family we won’t have enough vacation time yet alone money to go then. So my stepsister and I are trying to aim for mid-August.

I think it would be freaking awesome for literally the WHOLE family to go on a vacation. That’s 14 people just painting Nor.Cal. red. 101 and J.N. really came at  the right time for Preston and I. If not I’d be saying no the whole trip at the mere mention. I haven’t even started paying for our trip to New York yet. But things are really looking hopeful.

A new boredom.

So I’m embarking on something new. Plus it gives me a reason to use my web cam. I will be taking one photo, starting from today, and posting. My photo may or may not come with an entry, but non the less it will be posted. It’s a way for me to really see the changes I make this year. 2008 here is my first picture and entry on a big road that lays above me. This year feel so different. Like I know some great things will be happening this year. I don’t know what, yet alone when, but I can feel it in my soul, in my heart.

FYI I finally bleached some highlights into my hair after one year of pure black dullness. Naomi was the last person to dye my hair.  I was, am, aiming towards shocking platinum blond. Think some where along these lines before and after. But my evil thick black hair takes bleaching like kids love brussels sprouts. So its more blond than platinum. At my next touch up it will be closer to what I want. Then eventually I’ll go back to blue and purple.

You should watch the Sarah Connor Chronicles.  It’s pretty good.

Zum Zum

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ID Theft

I never really thought it would happen to me. I am generally a pretty safe person about this sort of thing.

When I buy online, I buy from places I trust. I don’t hand out my card to anyone. I remember my card by heart so I hardly ever have to take it out. But some mysterious person has my number and had no problem using it.

No guilt in thinking about how hard I had to work for that money. No guilt in thinking what I may need that money for. No guilt in thinking I have a family to support. No guilt.Period.

It’s sickening. I took care of everything this morning. I went to my bank filled out all my paperwork, gave them my card and requested a new card. I even called Equifax to put a fraudulant warning on my credit report. I’m sick to my stomach.

I’m grateful to have my savings right now, but that’s beyond the point. My son’s 4th birthday is coming up and up until today I thought I had it all planned out, now I just don’t know what I am going to do for him.

In result of this stress I picked up another pack of cigarettes. I was about 3 months good again. But this sort of stress food just doesn’t cut it. When things settle down again I’ll quit, again. I need to find a new way of dealing with stress. I’ve been binge eatting too. There went my diet plan too. I was doing so good. I lost 8 pounds and within a day I already gained back 4 lbs.

Hopefully, I can get my money refunded back to me. Quickly! None of this might take up to 2-3 months crap. I can live without my card, but I live off of my checking account. Dammit I want to shove that ID stealing asshole’s head down some his throat just so he can rip it out of his ass.

Time, never enough of it.

If there is one big difference between childhood and adulthood it’s most definitely time.

When you are younger it feels as if time is infinite. Time never really stops, but it feels pretty slow most of the time. Like weeks feel like months. And quite literally you fee like you have all the time in the world.

But here I am on a cloudy Thursday afternoon in 2007. I was just thinking about how my weeks, quite frankly the last 4 years, have gone by so quickly. I’m sure I have stopped to smell the roses every once and a while here and there, but my time is flying by so quickly I’m not quite sure if I’m getting the most out of my 24 hours a day.

I remember the feeling of time from 18 years old and below it was the feeling of forever. The feeling of time never really seemed to have a value. I could put everything off till the next day and not have to worry if I had time to finish or start whatever it was. I remember sitting in school and wondering when it was ever going to finish because I just wanted to play with my friend. On the weekends out side in the driveway or yard playing with my friends we would skate, ride bikes, build tents, play pirates, run around playing tag, go through at least 6 games on my SNES and Sega, hang out at the park, and then relax eatting some ice ceam all within a 5 or 6 hour period. But it felt like we were at it for the ENTIRE day.

Now within 5 or 6 hours I’m lucky if I finish cooking dinner, washing 3 loads of laundry and sweep up my living room. It’s insanity, lol.

But 4 years ago I was 19. I think that’s when I really grew up. I just had my son, I was going to school for something I actually wanted to do, I worked part time and I was learning to be a wife. From then it seems like time was put on permanent fast forward. It’s weird.

You don’t realize how fast time has gone until you step away from it for just a moment. I did that today. I’m sure I’ve done it before, but today I was reminded again. I see how much my enviroment has changed, my friends, my family, my son, and myself. It’s amazing how much time can change everything around and you don’t notice it.

I love how much my friends have grown, how much my son has grown and matured, how my enviroment is changing with every passing wind, and best yet how much I have grown into the person I love today.

So I end this waiting. Because I can’t wait for another 4 years to see where I, we, are at.

Sony’s Rolly

This will be on my Christmas/Birthday/Just get it for me Wish list.

It’s Sony’s next mp3 player. The Rolly.

I want, you buy. lol.

Plus the commercial is hilarious. I won’t post the whole commerical, but just half the clip.